Tuesday, April 29, 2008

when i went home during cny holiday,i heard from my mum that my younger sis got a bf who i think is from a rich family (but tats not the point,rich or not rich doesnt really matter AT THIS STAGE marrr =) )

when i was studying for my sumatif 2 and my mum called me to ask about my progression, she told me my younger brother date a girl who can play the piano well

when she called me this morning to ask me what is the exact date of my flight, yet,i bet u can guess what am i going to say now--my youngest brother is now in a relationship witha smart girl

look at the eldest one,what is she doing now in the nothing-to-to-but-study apartment ?heyy,imu student marr,so, nerdy nerd is the phrase.

假期时,我也要与生活来一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱, 和疯狂的人,事,物 来一场华丽的邂逅.
holiday is coming very very,really really soon

i will really smile from the bottom of my heart when i think about it

must do something crazy when i go home

dun worry,wont do naked run =)))

watching TV till the wee small hour,eat all sort of home cook food,go yam cha (yes,ricky,billy and ph,is CHA,no tiger beer or vodka anymore) , listening to the nagging of mum,having small quarreling with siblings, reading novels like nobody's bzness, my holiday trips, interact with people in MY space,facebook, OMG, life is so wonderful

i want to GO HOME
sometimes i just don't understand,why people have to complain so much?
for example, one girl wants to eat something so badly but after she eats it,she keeps complaining that it is so fat and bla bla bla
plz lah, u r the one who wants to eat it ,then why do u need to complain everywhere?
i just don't understand this kind of people

may be im not so girl =)

i know it is not so good to criticise someone i don't know after reading her blog but i cant resist the temptation of posting this simply because i always think that life is good,food is good,why do we need to complain so muchhhh esp for this kind of small stuff?

btw,y do i need to view her blog since the beggining? =))
why everyone in IMU seems to be so busy and why am i so free?
exam is coming , i duno where is my stress , it is indeed bad becuse no stress= no motivation= not studying

3 weeks left

even my 'lazy gang',like qh, jr they all seem to be freaking hardworking this time

eos 2,i know u r the real killer,have mercy on me please,dun kill me

by the way,im going back on 22nd of may

home sweet home,here i come

Friday, April 18, 2008

Yesterday was indeed a happy day.i get back my sumatif 2 result but as usual,my hand started shivering during the lecture (they only gv the result after the lecture).

how is the result? =).i 10s God for all His blessing because i know i wont be able to do anything without Him.(but im quite sad that when i told everyone im not smart or clever or watever and i get such result is becuz of i pray hard,no one blif me=( ).

but the most happy thing is i went to red box to sing K.wuhuuuuu,i had been waiting this for a very long time already.thanks Rakesh for purposely driving us(me,Charlie,Chui King and wee long) to sunway pyramid as he himself was not joining us.we were so excited and sang until 8.30pm.i must admit that Charlie was pretty good and he should really join the IMU idol and the coming singing competition.add point to him as he doesn't really know chinese but he managed to sing the Jay chow's song perfectly.salute salute.(actually all of us can sing just not as well as him lahhhh)

went to watch the movie 'definitely,may be' after that.it was actually quite boring but certain parts were quite touching.

after the movie,it was 11p.m and most of the eating places were closed already.no much choice left and we went to uncle lim to have our dinner+supper.

it was 12am by the time we reached vista.it was indeed a great day because i manage to sing so many songssssss.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Busy is the word and play too much is my complaint.

will only write about birthday after i get the picture from lily

p/s:charlie,10s so much for asking them to sing the song(i was very paiseh u know)

went to visit sing siang who currently studies in sedaya .it has been 3 years we didnt see each other after the NS.i cant really belif that she is now much stronger than 3 years ago,mentally of cuz. we still share the small secret,gossip something funny ,exactly the same as what we did in NS.that is what does it mean by'friend',even if we didnt manage to spend to0 much time together,we still rmb each other and care about each other.sometimes,even if we see some people everyday but they just cant leave the foot print in our heart.

i am quite upset that i miss the chance for my 2nd clinical visit,not i dun wanna go but the lazy pig christine cant wake up even if she set 3 alarm clocks and hide them in every nook and crany of her room (this is very exagerated but it does make sense to u,isn't it?)

this is probably the 1st time i would like to say loudly and publicly that i just want to pass my exam,i know no one will believe me and my mum will probably kill me for this ,even i myself can't believe that i will think like this.stop telling me must aim for A,i want to enjoy my life instead of stress myself to the max .i duno why A doesn't seem to be as attractive to me as before.i m not kidding.

holiday holiday holiday ,i want holiday,i want to go home ,i want to watch TV 24/7,wana go clubbing with my sibu gang,ricky and billy they all,wana throw myself in the corner of the public library and read all the novel...

this blog gotta hibernate until after my eos,or else,all ' i want' will become impossible
when i was trying to clear up some of my older document in d-drive,these are something i came across and they reminded me of my greatest hobby,which i even forget i had such hobby-writing.i always wanted to become an editor for famous magazine or a reporter who work for famous Tv channel .i know,i am now in a medical school but deep down inside,i had never buried my passion. those who read a lot should know about taiwanese doctors 候文咏 (the doctor who wrote 'the hospital')and 欧阳林,i always admire them and want to be someone like them.

here are some of the novels i tried to wrote but never complete owing to the reason that i don't really have time nowadays,i know what should i do during my coming holiday =)


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玫瑰枯萎,春水隨著空氣消失,愛情也留不住,似有若無的回憶,再也激不起任何的浪花。愛情,它來過嗎?我沒有答案。但,他來過,在我心中逗留了一段日子。而我的戀情,在經過5個月的煎熬後,演變成今天無言的結局,留下的只是佈滿淚浪的回憶

(i think this is a 散文, can't be the opening of the novel,if it is,it will be too difficult for me to continue it)
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注定的了,没有人能逃离那枷锁.三个人的世界太拥挤,却没有人能选择退出.太多的遗憾,太多的猜疑,到最后,故事已没有最后,没有结局,除了眼泪记载着那如树枝盘缠交错的情结,幸福已渐渐在回忆里模糊,又或许,幸福从来没出现过.
这是别人的故事,一个女孩,两个男孩...
这是开始于公元二零零四年年底的故事.
偶然的擦身而过,激起了一见钟情的火花,从此,男孩在自己的爱情里沦泄了.
在国民服役营里的三个月,他们交换了电话号码,偶然一伙人一同吃晚饭,进展犹如食堂边的流水,平静及缓慢得令人窒息.在多少个寂寞的夜里,男孩拖着疲惫的身躯,让不安的情绪倾袭着他,告诉自己还没麻木,告诉自己还没放弃.
三个月后,大家各分东西,女孩即将飞往澳洲与家人团聚.
一直到送机的那一刻,男孩不再用坚强来诠释自己脆弱的情感,眼泪成了离别的见证,那一天,我也感动了,我看见了男孩的眼泪.一直到最后一刻,女孩始终没给男孩答案.
异地的相隔,却产生更多的思念.sms,msn,friendster成了传递问候与关怀的媒介.
每天在网路上与女孩聊到清晨,成了他精神唯一的寄托.他庆幸的是柏斯与大马并没有太大的时间差距

(ah pek,u gotta kill me for this if u understand the chinese ,=) but don't ask me to complete it because it gotta be too long story)

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眼泪都断了线,那一刻起,向自己的信心做了最后的再见.没有所谓的依依不舍,却刹那恨透它给我的泡沫希望
情绪.灵魂.的.寄托.全都失去.引颈长盼雨天后的彩虹,却始终不见那一片应当属于我的晴天.两天了,悲伤始终没有退却,却一波接一波的冲击我的尊严与最后的信心.不想知道离康复的日子还有多远,麻木的将自己麻木在不见底的情绪风暴中.
多久了?我真的忘了,彻底的忘了上一次我对自己的表现感到满意是多久以前的事情了.梦想的坂土越缩越小,我也渐渐开始看不见自己.

(omg,i can't belif i was so emo 2 years ago)

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ONE SAD THING I FOUND OUT ABOUT MYSELF-MY CHINESE HAS DETERIORATED MUCH FASTER THAN I EXPECT IT TO BE,IT IS NOW AS BAD AS MY ENGLISH,I SURRENDER AND ACCEPT THE FACT.YOU CAN'T EXPECT READING STUFF LIKE 'NECROSIS,APOPTOSIS,VAGAL STIMULATION,IMMUNOGLOBULIN,ETC' EVERYDAY CAN MAKE YOUR ENGLISH OR CHINESE ANY BETTER

P/S:I ACCIDENTALY FOUND THE BLOG OF MY pbl FACI(ian chik) WHEN I WAS GOGGLING SOMETHING,WEIRD =)
went to eat lunch with eugene,lily,chris and troy.i like to spend time with them.

but i duno why my mind keep thinking 'they are going to leave IMU soon,then i wont have this kind of chance to spend time with them agn,one month left only'
SAD =(

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it has been quite a long time since my last log in to my friendster account.i was stunned when i saw the shout-out post space was filled with sth like this --''i forgot to log off in elab but luckilly the person was kind enough to just do this." `sweat'

duno which naughty person did this kind of funny thing but i dun feel fear because there is no secret in my account

im getting high now when i think of the CF camp 2ml .i know,none of my close fren is going and my 'family members' are in the committee ,don't think they will have time to 'choi' me too.i dun really worry about it because i believe i can make new friends there and socialising is not the purpose of the camp.i just want to learn more about HIM.
eric called me for 2 times before i realised that i was late again(actually not late lah,just they all come before 7.30a.m and i was the latest)

community clinic visit was pretty bored and this was what we did after the history taking
rowena ,christine, charlie,azree
saying about the intersting thing,i think everyone will remember THE DRESSING ROOM INCIDENT esp eric and azree =) it is so scandalous that i better not to mention it here
went to pizza hut for lunch and we had a great time together
the best part of the clinic visit is we get to know each other better and i start to love my pbl group more than ever
finally i watched the movie 'L change the world" with mee ang,i am glad that i watch it oto some people told me it is not as nice as the death notes series.'you canot change the world alone no matter how gifted you are but this is the wonder of this world',i like what he said but both of us felt pretty sad for him ,you will know why if you watch the movie .

since the main purpose of our trip today is for food and movie,we only went to MNG and ZARA.guess this is the 1st time i did not buy any shirt from MNG after trying the shirt .y?simply because ZARA and GUESS are my newest favourite =).fail to control myself again after entering ZARA .

tried out taiwanese food in mid valley for lunch ,Gelatissimo ice cream for tea time and another taiwanese food for dinner in the garden.initially wana having our dinner in tony roma but both of us feel sick of all the western food already and i dun feel like going to japanese restaurant because i bought a lot of materials from Shojikiya like materials for shushi and miso soup,plan to cook it next week.

spent the last 2 hours in carrefour and i was quite surprise to see my senior Kiryu there but duno how come,i felt like he looked very different 2day,may be he comb his hair until very high?

duno whats wrong with the LRT service 2day and i had to wait for 30 minutes for the lrt to come.by the time i reached my hostel,it was about 11.30pm already,my mum gotta give me long lesson if she know this esp IF SHE KNOWS THAT I COME BACK ALONE as mee ang needs to go back to UKM.

anyway,gotta sleep now,2ml will be pretty busy as i didnt do anything beneficial for study after my summative 2.this will be my 2nd last outing before my exam (the last outing is my Cf camp which on this coming friday).i love shopping simply because i feel motivated when i see the branded stuffs i like so much but i cant afford to buy it.this sounds so wrong but i bet most of the people are materialistic but not everyone will admit it.
regretness suddenly creeps into my mind when i browse the CA blog,i only went to CA aka campus alive twice when i was studying in my college

glad that i dun repeat the same mistake again now =)
全部housemates都回家了,又是一个安静的周末,开始喜欢上寂寞的感觉,不需要与人沟通,做什么事都随心所欲,只差点没裸着身体在屋里走动

不知怎地,老是觉得想呕,别告诉我怀孕了,绝对没可能!!!

开始觉得自己有越来越堕落,无可药救,连续不停地追看连续剧,香港,台湾,日本,有杀错,无放过,对桌上的笔记连碰都没碰过,明天明天明天,我倒想看看还有多少个明天好给我消磨,考试这一大关都还没闯过,心思却老早已飞到云霄之外,哎,真的是无可药救了....