finally i feel the stress again,then all the sleeping problems come back and this time i feel even worse..
i feel like crying but ,just feel bad ,i duno why i feel so bad.
it is indeed very tired if u sleep for 2 hours and u have the nightmares for the whole 2 hours and when u wake up,ur emotion is still in ur dream,end up emoing the whole night.

and the things just change from worse to the worst when u open ur eyes and see how thick is the notes tat u never touch and u can actualy guess tat you are the only pity creature in ur badge who is still so lazy despite the exam is just around the corner..yea,then when u start studying the notes for the 1st time and use up duno how many hours to just finish a notes,u will start thinking how many times other people have done with their revision or how fast are them as compared to your super snail- paced speed.and to make the things even worse,ur memory is damn sux .

stress stress stress stress stress

Vincy,if u dun want edison chen anymore,then i want..

but i know he wont want me,sobbing....

i wana eat this!!!ying chang,find out the place and we go together.it is your mission to make me happy since you finish your exam oledy =)

today is friday and no CG.i was feeling lazy again.so,decided to go to the library to do some question regarding the fact that i don't like to study and memorise.randomely choose a patho book and trying out the questions on the topic of inflammation.i cant realy answer all the 50 OBA but when i check the answer,i get 35 out of 50.quite encouraging for me because i havent studied the notes and only recall from what i remember during the lectures and the lab session.by the way,if this the summatif result,i think i will cry like hell and go into super depressive state.exam is coming soon AGAIN AND I CANT FEEL THE INTRINSIC MOTIVATION this time.im still so unprepared .should i aim high or lower my target?helpless and hopeless---my never-overcomeable-pre-exam symdrome.

singing has been the most difficult task for me all these year,as difficult as doing maths but just now ricky forced me to sing in his place,in front of so many people.i doubt if they all will have nightmares tonight.=)today is the first day of new year and i slept until1pm.nothing much difference happens except i don't need my frens come and fetch me again.driving to shu yung's house but as usual,i get lose again and need to call her to ask for exact direction.not going to elaborate much about where i went and what i did but seriously,we had a lot of fun in ricky's house.ricky,i am here to remind you that don't forget to send me the pictures .
belows are some of the pictures i promised months ago-the countdown in genting

gary

they distribute the baloon from high up at 12 am

billy

stella chung

in the cable car

group pic
with the family from india,the children are so cute

group picture

today is new year but im no longer the young me who used to like chinese new year so much.thinking of the nightmare ,i can feel the fear now altough my exam is still quite long from now.the dream was so real and i was unable to answer any question in the dream.i wonder if this a sign telling me that i will do bad in my coming exam or it is time for me to start studying from the very first lecture.i was ambitious before i come back,planning to do some revision during my one - week holiday but this is what happens---i havent even take the notes out from my luggage.the only thing i did is my PBL but it took 2 nights--such a new record as compared to my normal 2 - hour speed.
i am thinking of quitting myself from joining the coming orientation .i know this is kind of irrresponsible but what to do?they prospone the orientation without discussing it with us and their reason is because they have exam.now,i have my exam too and you all have 2 whole month to study for your CVS ,we dont have that much holiday before our summatif.call me selfish if you want,i don't really care much about this .

things do change without your realisation and i feel it to the max this time.i havent come back for half a year and suddenly my neighbour gonna marry soon although he is just of my age,suddenly my brothers look more mature,suddenly my sister starts working,suddenly it is another new year again.i don't know how to describe this kind of feeling and im not gonna think too much about it because new year reminds me of my age-21!!!!DEVASTATING!!thinking back of many years ago,the time when everyone was obsessed by ICQ and MIRC,when you chat with someone you don't know,tell them you are 15,16,17 ,then the person will keep asking about your phone number.now,if you are honest and tell them you are 21 and the next sentence you receive will most probably be like this'soli,i gtg,chat with u nez time' or 'oh' or 'im busy nw,chat with u later' and the worst scenario--the person not even reply you.i admit i did it myself when i was still 15,16,17.=)

by the way,i am quite happy that i manage to overcome the phobia of driving and yesterday i even drove from my house to parkson.thanks meizhen for forcing me to drive althougt the method you use seems like a bit too 'aggressive' and 'dangerous'---she just stopped the car by the roadside at 11.30pm and ask me to drive it .i think this brave girl is the only one who will use this kind of method in order to force me to learn driving.

i will be going back to Kl on saturday night .i really hope that air asia wont delay the flight because it will depart at 9pm and it will be at around 11pm when i arrive the LCCT and 12 am by the time i reach my hostel.

my new year resolution?be more hardworking and much clever than now!!!

happy new year everyone!!

mei zhen and christine

we sleep together

we play together

we laugh together

we lend ears to each other

oto she is in perth and im in kl

we are s till sister+friend+so-called lover

second steamboat of the week.

a nice gathering before we all going back for chinese new year

=)