i duno how to describe it--when the best and the worst hapen on the same day

i regret tat i show too little care,im guilty tat i din try to be close to you,

the moment u suffer,i was not around,

there are so many 'i wish' but all the 'i wish' are so impossible now

if i have the power to set the time back,i will let the time goes back to 1987 and i will treasure the little moment we spent together

the rain outside is pelting down,down on the earth and pelt so hardly on my heart.i duno if the sky is crying together with me or shouting at me for not being a good grand daughter all these while.i rmb,it is the same rain which bring my memory back to 3 years ago when i had the same heartpain moment.i m not even eligible to say a soli now.

it is owes too late when i realise i did sth wrong for not doing anything.